Beauty in Mania | Likhitha Muralikrishna (Anyā).
My name is Anyā. I am a still-life photographer based in Singapore. I struggle with Bipolar Disorder, and part of living with this involves learning to manage the high and lows mood swings that come with this illness. I photographed this series with the aim of capturing my point of view when I feel mania setting in, and journey through with it.
Art is such a powerful tool for communication. I am a photographer and an artist. I have always told myself that my journey with photography is to give myself courage to face the things I am afraid of. Sometimes I have abstract visions, my ears catch strange whispers and I have phrases that catch my fancy floating about in my mind. All of these associate with different emotions that I cannot seem to put a finger on, yet I can see them and feel them perfectly clearly.
One day I decided I was at a phase in my photography where I was ready to try to decode these thoughts and represent them in an image. If I could photograph my thoughts, and people could see how beautiful and exciting it was, maybe then they would understand me better. I tend not to speak about a lot of things usually because I don’t know how to explain myself, but photography came at a phase in my life when I taught myself to communicate using visuals rather than words.
I wanted to represent my life and my journey with bipolar disorder like the way I see it. It has its ugly sides, but I have to give it credit for making me see things differently. As an artist, I have the power to harness these visions. Usually around the time when mania pokes its head in my life, I’m unsure about about myself. Sure, it makes things beautiful, but the tiredness that sets in afterwards is something I do not particularly like. I’m hesitant to give in to the allure, yet there it is waiting for me to go on a magical journey. That is exactly what I wanted to show with this small photographic series featuring glitter covered orchid buds. People often ask me if I see things differently, yes I do! This is a small glimpse into how beautiful ordinary things look when I’m manic.